Happiness

Here are my thoughts for today: numbered. I am so happy! It's fun being mildly manic. Yes, I was diagnosed as being Bi-Polar on Friday. But hey, man, it's better than just having depression. With bi-polarness you get sad AND happy days- yay! See (www.bipolar.com) for more info on my condition. Thank you, Ellen, for coming and helping organize my home for three whole days! You truly have taught me how to focus on completing one task before I complete another. Now, if I can just find the cord to my camera, I can post some pictures of Anna on here- which BY THE WAY!!! Anna is a complete DOLL. She is adorable, sweet, mild tempered, loves to dance, walks a ton, says "mama" when she doesn't know where Ellen is, knows airplanes in and out, knows how to pop her own ears, makes a funny bllhhh sound with her tongue that she learned from Sabrina, her almost 3 year old cousin and looks adorable in red! She is so cute, she wins the baby contest of my heart- especially when she...

I'm still very manic aka- hyper- so I won't post a long blog post today. I just got back from the dr. They upped my medicine to 10 mg and cautioned me to avoid spending and avoid other things also. If you want to talk more about it you can call me. Also, at the dr.'s he called in a doctor resident and explained my whole case to him. I guess I'm not a-typical and that the resident dr. could learn something from my case. In other news, Ellen- Josh's sister has been here and has been a great help! Thanks, Ellen!!!! Jen Abbott-Paul will arrive at 5:30 pm at BWI on Monday and will leave on Saturday, March the 7th. So... no Disneyland for me yet. Maybe in later March or November. US Airways is having a deal that if you buy a ticket before March 5th and use it before November, then it is really cheap. Love, Megan

Smile!!! Asher, 3 months old For those of you who don't know- I was diagnosed with major dpression several months ago. I've been struggling with each medicine they have put me on: seraquel, lexapro, and of late ambien and abilify and finally they have got it right!!! or so I feel-zyprexa 5 mg!!! It's a bi-polar medicine. The lexapro "kicked" me into a bi-polar manic state. Yesterday I walked into my dr.'s office with no appointment and waited for two hours. He saw me at 12:45 pm and gave me the zyprexa. He offered no information about it. I grilled him "How long should I take it" 'It is only taken a short time, since it will cause weight gain and diabetes if taken for longer.' Good thing I asked! How long should I take it, I asked "a short time- say three or four days." When do I take it "at night 1 hour before bed" I took it last night a t9:15 pm. I was drugged to sleep by 10:15pm and slept pretty soundly until 7 am. It w...

March 2007, Asher- nine months old Dear Family and Friends, Due to personal reasons, I will be limiting the amount of screen time I have on the computer. I want to only check my e-mail, facebook and blogs once or twice a week- usually Saturday or Sunday and maybe sometime mid-week. If you have any questions or concerns, feel free to call me at my home or on my cell, which I now usually carry with me wherever I go. Love, Megan

This morning we are potty training Asher. I didn't plan on it, but then my sister Larissa, is potty training her not even two year old girl today, so I said "Why not?" I laid out three choices to wear this morning for Asher (30 months old): pull up, white plastic undies or 1.99 Ross undies that have footballs and glow in the dark. Guess what he chose? That's right the glow in the dark, now saggy baggy 2t-2t undies. Jonah and Ethan were very excited for him! Choose the glow in the darks ones said Jonah (4.9 years old!) I want some glow in the dark ones too, waaaahhH! cried Ethan. I talked to him, explained that it wasn't his potty party (let's make cupcakes mom- you have to make cupackes. Sais JOnah. Oh by, the way, Ethan and Jonah went to Child Find- speech and development therapists- and they are completely find and normal for their age! Which is 4.9 years old by the way, as told by their name tags there. So, I'm still manic. I went to Relief Society in S...

Yesterday I went to see my psychiatrist. He gave me a one week-ish prescpition to abilify which I have never heard of before, but helps calm down manics like me. He asked me if I had any grandiose illusions or paranoia. I assured him that I did not. He said if you are manic (ie. very happy instead of very sad such as depression) that you will turn into having thoughts like that. It reminded me of the guy who kidnapped Elizabeth Smart and thought he was Jesus. Either he was schitosophrenic or paranoid. Also, a low dose of ambien for sleep. Unlike the abilify, I've been wanting some for a loonnngg time now and am glad to get it. I took 2 mils of ambien last night around 10:30 pm. Ok. Long story short. I woke up at 5 am and need to take two. I took abilify and it was me nausoues. I called my dr and later he returned my call, telling me to take abilify in the morning on a full stomach. Why do I mention all of this? I'm learning a lot and wanted to share it all with you. Love, Megan

Check out my other blog at www.warmilkandripebananas.blogspot.com. In other news, I saw the dr. today. He gave me some ambien and something to calm me down, with an appt. to see Dr. Joshi next Friday morning. Here's to a better week full of rest and sleep and normalacy! Love, Megan

37. Babysitting 38. Doing acts of service 39. Baking desserts 40. Eating shakes 41. Taking a class 42. Christmas 43. Christmas shopping 44. General Conference 45. Waffles 46. Easter 47. Valentines Day 48. Halloween 49. Thanksgiving 50. Eating Sees candy 51. Anything pink 52. Anything chocolate 53. Sleeping on clean sheets 54. Dressing up my kids on Holidays 55. Taking a bath 56. Lighting a candle a candle 57. Reading a candle 58. Writing a good poem 59. Making a fun card 60. Taking a scrapbook class 61. Shopping for a scrap project 62. Starting projects 63. Reading a good Conference talk 64. Giving kisses 65. Receiving kisses 66. Watching

My Ipod- that I washed and dried in the washer and dryer This past weekend was a hard one for me, especially since Valentines Day is my favorite holiday and several things went wrong. I just wanted to thank all of those who came to my aid and helped me deal with some issues that I am struggling with. Thank you Josh, Aunt Ellen, Uncle Craig, Dad Abbott, Mom and Dad, Molly, Shellie- my friend and Relief Society President- and an anonymous helper from the ward. I appreciate all of the service that you gave me these past two or three days and I am most especially grateful to my Heavenly Father. He is always there for me and He daily lets me of His love for me. This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

After three parties that were attended yesterday- the boys preschool one, a Church one and Elizabeth's class one (which we were late too, but I still got to read the class a Valentine book and sing a song to them. Mrs. Jocham said I should be their official room mother! I'm there so much! Hee hee! I love the kids. I loved being with them. I just hate grading, being responsible for their spelling etc. Maybe I should go into preschool! They don't have to have any report cards that I would be responsible for!!)- we will be having a low key day today. I surprized Josh this morning with a scavenger hunt and a wii. He has been wanting it so badly and I had already bought itfor his birthday, but couldn't wait to give it to him! This morning, after getting a full un-interrupted eight hours of sleep and waking up at 6 am and not being able to go to the gym- since it opens at 8 am- I devised a scavenger hunt with the wii at the end on our futon downstairs. The kids woke up to lit...

I wanted to write a little about my new blog: warm milk and ripe bananas. Basically it is a missionary tool that I want to use to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ to others. Since the readers of Pink Panda are mostly my friends and family and are mostly lds, I wanted to do a blog that talks about the joy that I find through the Gospel. As I do this, I hope to bring others unto Christ. So, I will be posting there whenever I feel so inclined. Feel free to add it to your blog list. I also own the domain www.pnkpanda.com, but don't know what I want to do with it exactly. I do want to put all my blogs in one spot: pink panda- private, warm milk and my pictures through picasa and links to my favorite blogs. Mostly this blog does it all for me, so I'm not even sure I need a websitest need to re-vamp this blog once in a while. Anyone want to tutor me? Anyone like Cutest Blog on the block? What other sites are out there? I guess I could google it. If I really, really wanted to. By the w...

Anyone want to go to the temple with me on President's day? I know the Stake Relief Society is going on Saturday, but I will be selling stuff at the Baby Bazaar then. So sad! I haven't discussed this with Josh yet, but he has off and we don't have plans. Maybe we should do something as a family or does anyone want to watch our kids while we go to the temple. Maybe we should visit the Baltimore Aquarium, although it costs an arm and a leg. It's VERY windy today and some street lights were out by the gym and my lights just flickered! I better get off the computer and take my Sams Club pizza out of the oven. By the way, babe, I picked up your new glasses and contacts at Sams Club today. Wear them on Valentines Day! I'm sure you'll look hot in them! Love, Megan ps. Sams club is now carrying a hot new grill if anyone does own one yet- HINT. HINT.

This past week I learned a lesson- oh wait, I already blogged about this. Are you guys reading my blog? Testing 1,2,3... leave me a comment and I will know who is reading this. I'm writing mostly for my benefit, but I would like to know who is checking in on me! Check out my new public blog at www.warmilkandripebananas.blogspot.com The name is crazy. I know! This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

I'm $18.75 short of a show total of $300.00 in sales for my Pampered Chef Party. It closes today. What do you want to order and help me earn $40 in free items, 20% off anything I need for my kitchen. Please! I've been diagnosed with Major Depression. Help me out of my funk and support my goal to have a beautiful organized kitchen and good meals for myself and my children. What do YOU want to buy from me? My show closes TODAY! 12 PM!! I'll throw in a free sweet sprinkle if you order today! Love, Megan p.s. no pressure! p.p.s go to www.pamperchef.biz/bethelw. My favorite products are the stoneware (although I don't own any- yet) the batter bowl, the flat whisk, the pitchers, okay- just about EVERYTHING! Order now! Pay later! With your tax return! Hee hee.

Elizabeth and Mary Carroll I feel very blessed today. I am sitting in a quiet house. Elizabeth is at school- taken by my friend Melissa Carroll since our van is in the shop. A few months ago the windshield wiper fluid stopped working. We dealt with it. As long as we could. Until the snow hit. Finally it was 55 degrees on Monday. I prayed about what to do with my day on Tuesday and got the answer, Take your van to be fixed, today! Aaahhh! I frantically took it in, making no plans on how I would get around for the next day. Last night, at nine pm, when I realized that my van was gone, I started having a mild anxiety attack. I felt all was lost. I had messed up. I had followed the Lord's counsel, but had gone about it the wrong way- without any planning or decision on my part. Now I have learned. I need to make plans by myself, and then take them to the Lord. Josh helped remind me of this. I already have put this knowledge to use this morning. On my way home from the gym, I spotted CV...

My Mom sent me a cute book the other day: 101 Ways to Date Your Mate. On page 124 and 125 of the said book it has the rules of love book 1, from De Arte Honesti Amandi by Andreas Capellanus. I thought they were fun and wanted to share them here, on my blog. 1. Flee from avarice like a noxious plague, and embrace its opposite. 2. You must keep yourself chaste for your beloved's sake. 3. You must not deliberately try to break up a love affair between a woman suitably joined to another man. 4. Take care not to chose for your love a person whom a natural sense of shame would prohibit you from marrying. 5. At all cost, take care to avoid lies. It goes on and on. Hilarious. This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

Here is an explanation about the previous post. Josh was not able to look at it, since it is private and I had not invited him to look at it. I guess no one can see it but me so far, but I don't have the time or the energy right now to go and invite everyone through their e-mails. So, I guess my blog, www.ilovemybabe.com, will continue to linger in a private land, until a future date. Love, Megan

Check out one of my other blogs at www.ilovemybabe.blogspot.com. I originally started it as a cute way to let Josh know I was expecting our fifth baby. Well, that fifth baby has not come yet, and it's a year later, so now I will use it as a forum where I will post letters and pictures and hopefully baby announcements for Josh to read. You can read it too- if you want. You are my family and friends. I love you all. Love, Megan

You know you are over 30 when someone at Church compliments your haircut and says it makes you look younger. Younger? Thank you! I guess I thought I was already young. Hmm.. This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

Lately, the boys have been coming home from Preschool and telling me what they learned. Today they said they learned about small, medium and large. They also said that their teacher told them to tell me to work on their numbers since they don't know them. What? This is pretty humbling for me. I am a teacher as a profession. Shouldn't my boys be masters at the numbers 1-20, knowing how to count in sequence and how to write each one? Today, after school I asked her how they did today. She sighed. This is not a good thing! Their attention spans she said. They are so short. I know. I've lived with them for four and a half years. I have had to pen them up in their cribs to tell them a story. I had to put a baby gate up so they wouldn't escape their rooms. I have had to chase them, corral them and if they are home from Preschool three days in a row I go bonkers. These are my children we are talking about. I know they have a little ADD. I have a little ADD. My mom probably has...

At our nearby Mall, Lakeforest, their is a small place where Chinese men give people massages. I've never been interested until recently, when I took a kick boxing class and became so sore I could barely move. Ever since then I've been craving a massage. Usually Josh is my masseuse, by being a lawyer by profession, he is using very tired at the end of a long day and isn't trained in Massage. I've gone to the Mall several times, on a fact finding mission, but nothing ever came of it- until today. My day started out as usual: oatmeal for the kids, a shower for me, getting everyone dressed and in the car, dropping off Elizabeth and then Ethan and Jonah at preschool and then Asher at a friends so I could do volunteer work at Elizabeth's class. As I walked through the school I noticed something strange. Miss Fermanack's class was dark and there was a sign: "no heat. In Mrs. Jocham's class today (Elizabeth's class)." This is not good I thought to my...

Found my i-pod today. In the dryer. Ahh!!! The first thing my hand touched when I reached in was my mangled ear buds. Aahh! I called Josh and told him. I told him I didn't want to look in the dryer. It was like finding a dead something. Not a friend. Not an animal, but something you love- like watching your new Blueberry Jamba Juice be spilled on the parking lot floor. Like watching your tall chocolate dipped Dairy Queen Swirl fall out of your hands and go splat on the floor. But 10 times worse. OK. 150 times worse. We googled Ipod and washing machine and found that this has happened to a lot of people. I even took a picture. I will post it later when I find out my i-pod true fate. It's plugged into my computer now and it's glowing. For those of you who own an i-pod and don't want this to happen to you- I suggest that you check your pockets first. At least it wasn't a mercury thermometer! (Just kidding, Carolyn!) This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

Last night Josh slept in "Grandma's Room" (our extra room which Grandma was the very first guest to stay in). We moved our King bed into there because it was way too big and cold for me to sleep comfortably in. I've been waking up every night for the past three nights with a cold (even after taking Unisom) and proceed to wake up Josh either for a blessing (twice) or complain. Josh quoted Brigham Young in saying that even though you get a blessing, if you don't take medicine for what you have, you are not being very smart. That being said I bought some Nyquil last night but couldn't find it. This morning I found it, behind the curtains in the kitchen. Aaah! You see, I was raised by a Mother and Father who believe strongly in natural remedies and not the use of medicine. My Grandfather (my Dad's Dad) still feels that certain medicines are evil and should be avoided at all costs. So it's been a struggle all my life to use even basic things like Tylenol or...

Need I say more? Well, okay- but just a little bit! It hurts. The drops hurt (I'm using Josh's drop- is this okay?). It woke me up last night, thus the reason for this early morning blog. What else can I say? It ruins my plans for observing Ethan and Jonah today at Preschool and any other plans to work-out. Hmm. May the Springtime come and along with it warm weather and healthy bodies! This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

Well, I like to explore and tinker around the internet. In doing so, I thought it would be cool if I had my own website. I tried out the domain www.pinkpanda.com. It was taken, so I looked up another one. It was free, but I didn't like the name. I gave up. Then, after looking at my Doctor's website, which is www.docjoshi.com, not www.drjoshi.com, I tried the domain www.pnkpanda.com. It was open! I bought it and now I have no idea what to do next! Ideally I want to streamline my photos, facebook, e-mail and blog all into one page. What do you guys know about setting up a web site? Maybe I should get Building a Website for Dummies from the local library! Or maybe I should get off my duff and start doing something else. Too bad I am sick and just can't get a lot done right now! This is my blog, soon to be website- maybe. My name is Megan Abbott.

I'm still sick. Day #5. Cold. Cough. Runny nose. Congestion. Have to take a Tylenol severe cold medicine right now. Be right back. Okay. I found some soup in the fridge that my lovely friend Sariah made me. I'll eat that and go take a nap- hopefully! This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.