Happiness

Disclaimer*** I wrote this post with a lot of strong emotion. Maybe it should be a journal type entry, maybe not. All I know is that when I write, I feel better and sometimes the only place I'm motivated to write is here. Thank you for being so patient and loving. I visited a new Dr. (read Psych.) last week. I made Josh tag along with me. Somehow when the Dr. sees that I have such great support at home, they are more helpful and kind. Usually. This day we were running slightly late and then a missed exit made us even later. This put this particular Dr. in an unhappy mood. I'm glad he saw me though- I had been waiting TWO months to see him! He agreed with the other Dr. (along with several Drs. actually) that getting pregnant on lithium was not the best option for all involved. I calmly answered the rest of his questions for a good 20 minutes, got my prescription refilled and cried my way into the bathroom. My hands are getting shaky even now as I type this. I(irrationally) felt ...