The heavy rain clouds rolled in and with it came my Depression. I was doing really well last week- eating well, exercising and feeling pretty good! But, I've noticed with highly dramatic climate changes, my mood goes south quickly.
Depression is strange to talk about. People start getting worried- wondering if you are okay.
I am okay.
I am.
I just have a deep maroon, dark cloud hanging over me. Or hanging over my heart.
I don't feel very much of joy, laughter, light or love.
I buy my very favorite cinnamon bread- nothing. Ok, maybe a glimmer of a smile.
I take a nap. It helps some, but twenty minutes later, I am dragging- all energy sucked out from under me.
I look at a 94 year old man that I know who always takes the stairs.
Today I can barely keep up with my four year old.
We race along the wet sidewalk, trying not to step on the tiny snails that have come out to get a cool Fall drink. I stop and walk. He runs ahead laughing and commenting on my decision to walk.
And then I realize why I am so very tired.
It is the Depression.
It sucks your energy, leaving you slower than a 94 year old.
Although, you were slower than a 94 yr to begin to begin with. ;)
----I'm off to pick out Christmas Cards. Maybe that will bring some cheer to my day!
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