November 15, 2011

Sometimes...


Another pic from our House in Maryland

Sometimes in life, things don't go as planned. You try your best and life lets you down. Last week I went for my second visit with my OBGYN. I was planning to see a beautiful little 7 week old embryo, moving around a little with a teeny, tiny heart going thumpa, thumpa, thumpa.

All we saw was an empty sac. It took a few moments for it to set in. Anytime now they would find a heartbeat, I thought. But they didn't. The sac was measuring too small. They told me to come back in a week- today. To do another ultrasound. To check and be sure. I knew that I hadn't got my dates wrong. It was a miscarriage. I have been through this before but it doesn't make it any better.

Dang it. CRAP. And maybe another word as well. I don't get mad very often. But when I had spent the last 3 weeks hoping and dreaming. And then it ends, just like that? Luckily we hadn't told the kids or many people.

We went back to the Dr. yesterday, after a week of waiting, to confirm and check to see if there was any growth. I had come to terms with it. There wasn't any change. It was a blighted ovum. The Dr. gave me some pills to make it pass and I started them when I got home.

I know that all things will work out for my good. I know that. I will just have to wait and see. We'll be okay. People have been so thoughtful and helpful and supportive. Thank you. Sometimes life doesn't go as planned. And it hurts. I wish there was a pill for that kind of pain.

This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

ps. Baby Rose would be 1 yrs old today. I didn't name this one, as it was just so early.

7 comments:

kristen said...

I am SO sorry. We love you guys! love, kristen

Ryan and Heather Bartron said...

Oh, Megan. My heart aches for you. You and your sweet family will be in our prayers. We love you!

Aaron & Lauren said...

Megan I am so so worry for your loss.

Aaron & Lauren said...

Make that so so sorry. I guess worry works too.

Shawna said...

(((HUGS))) Megan, I'm so sorry.

Amber said...

I'm so sorry Megan, you guys are in my prayers.

nicciwoffinden said...

I'm so sorry Megan. I know words can't really help, but I really am sorry.