A little bit of Mania

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hello, Mania. thanks for stopping by. I haven't seen you for awhile. A long while. I lost sleep over playing a somewhat difficult piano solo in our new(ish) ward and somehow started being slightly manic.

Wanting to buy anything I saw today at Michaels (although I didn't), wanting to keep talking and talking during Visiting Teaching (which I didn't). And then it turned into more of an irritation. It was really a lot of little things that came together to bother me.

Josh came home from work early (which he would never have been able to do in MD), and I spent some quiet time at the library, reading magazines and then walking around the nearby lake.

That was scary. Scary enough that I don't want to do that again. Ever.

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Hilary said…
Way to show that mania who's boss!
July 24, 2013 at 11:34 AM
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