We can follow His will
I knew that when one announces their pregnancy, that it could be over in the drop of a hat and I tried to prepare myself. When a friend or loved one announced their pregnancy, I was cynical, knowing something could happen. When they gave birth to a healthy, happy baby, I sighed a big sigh of relief. They were okay. Their baby was okay. The heavy door slamming I had faced had not happened to them.
It had been one of the worst experiences I had ever had. I didn't know what to do. I was empty and alone. I felt like I was nothing. Useless. Things got better and peace returned. We looked toward adoption and eventually foster care to put our energy and love into. And it's been good. I'm excited that it's January- so close to March, when we start our foster care efforts again.
I know everything's okay. Things happen. And it's okay. It is through my Savior that I can relieved of this burden. The burden of fear and doubt, being replaced with Hope and Peace
This writing has been helpful for me. As I lay my burden at His Capable, Strong, Loving feet, He will comfort me and take care of me. And maybe missing my babies can help me relate to the sweet Mother who will be giving up her own baby for me to take care of.
In fact, I know it will. Life is a cycle. What you put into it, you get out of it and it comes right back to you!
Comments
Good luck with becoming a foster momma - there are so many little ones that need all that love you've got waiting!