February 16, 2012

Day of Awareness

our newly update Guest Bedroom

Three years ago, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I had been battling depression and had no clue that it could even remotely be a Bipolar thing. I thought Bipolar people were crazy- they would laugh then cry, shout then weep. They were crazy, right? Nope. It turns out they were okay- they just needed the right meds.

After moving across the country, away from most family and friends, it took me 6 months to fall into a deep depression. I began anti-depressants and my depression flipped into a happy-hyper-all-day-and-night thing and I was diagnosed with something I will have for the rest of my life. Bipolar disorder. And I am okay with it.Now. I've been on the same medicine (lithium 900 mg) for the past 2 1/2 years (off and on for some trys at more babies) and I've been stable. I do everything that everyone else can do- driving, sleeping, eating, reading, folding laundry, laughing, playing. I just have to go to the Dr. every few months for a refill. Meeting me, talking with me- you wouldn't be able to tell that I am bipolar. And I grateful for that normalcy. So grateful.

And yet I know that I am a 30 days supply away from not being so stable. From not leading such a normal life that I do lead. For this reason, I have a supply of my meds in our 72 hr. kit and I make sure that have the refills I need, always.

It's been humbling to be so dependent on a medicine. It's been humbling to have to go on medicaid and go to the State to get refills. (At my first- and last- appt. the Dr. said 'wow, your bmi is right on target- I haven't seen that in a long time' um, thanks?)

I've tried to take this weakness and make it into a strength, and three years later I can happily say that I think I have, thanks to the support of my family, friends, doctors, my therapist and most of all, my Savior Jesus Christ.

This is my blog. My name is Megan Abbott.

ps- did you know that 1 in 100 people have Bipolar Disorder? If you have 300 facebook friends, chances are 3 of them are bipolar- and I am one of them!

pps- do you love this bipolar "reveal"? I've done it before, but since I get new readers, I get to come out again and again!


Aaron & Lauren said...

I recently came to terms with anxiety and add. I am dependent on meds for them and for a non functioning thyroid. I sometimes worry that there will be some disaster and I won't have enough medicine and how will I function. Thanks for sharing. People need to know that it is normal and it is ok to take medicine to be normal. Lauren

Larissa said...

Yeah opening up helps others deal with any issues they may have too - so it is great you are open about it! Thats a great reminder to put my Thyroid meds in 72 hr kit too. I did not think if it although it is so basic. And yes that is a compliment your BMI is right on (:

Joanie said...

I think there are more bi-polar people than that..I know a lot of bi-polar people here in Victorville...isn't there a cute funny thing about bi-polar and there is a polar bear on it???
Anyway...I think you are doing great!