Happiness

Lately. My posts entitled lately get the fewest views, but I'm posting one anyways! Lately: I've come to terms with the fact that there will be no baby coming May. I'm okay with it and my heart feels at peace. It was stormy and rainy last week and sunny and 85 this week. Elizabeth said the other day- "that's it! Utah weather is crazy! I'm wearing shorts!" I'm okay with the but I did pack away all of their flip flops. Declan has turned into a screamer and will scream for whatever he wants. I sat him down yesterday, looked him in the eye and told him that was not okay. He's been better ever since. I take some natural supplements for my headache and my xenotoxicity- did I mention that here already? I went to a naturopath who did a body scan and said I was super healthy except my body takes in toxins instead of estrogen. This can lead to infertility, headaches, acne, etc. I was pregnant at the time so I couldn't take very much and now I am taking t...

Elizabeth,               You are a beautiful young woman! You are caring- you take care of Declan so well and you care how I and others are feeling. You often worry about others before yourself and every single time I ask you to watch Declan for a minute or a half hour or a date night, you readily agree!        You are one of the oldest in your grade and as such you are a wonderful example and guide to others. You are often confidant, happy, creative and loving. I love how you write notes to others, cross off each day on your own calendar and love watching Dr Who and Studio C. You amaze me, Elizabeth! You are amazing! Happy Birthday!

The Positive Pregnancy Test I was Positive It would be negative I felt not much Different. The world was turning  Like normal. The house was quiet- Still waking up From a deep sleep. But there it was- Positive. Positive that there Would be A change To my heart To our lives To our future. A very positive Positive. Negative The changes started  And I didn't know What to do. There was  No test to take. No- You are losing this baby Or... This baby will be just fine. You over did it. You need to rest. Or... This baby wasn't quite ready yet. To come to this world Of joy and pain. Of where "You're having a baby!" Turned into "You're having a miscarriage." When it really should be- "You're having a lesson." An earthly, spiritual lesson.

Restore, my dear Savior,     The light of thy face; Thy soul-cheering comfort impart; And let the sweet longing      For thy holy place Bring hope to my desolate heart.* *5th verse of my favorite hymn  Redeemer of Isreal

There is an  Opposition To all things Light Dark Happy Sad Loneliness Friendship Joblessness Employment Love Hate Blessings Cursings Strengths Weaknesses All roll into one  To make us whole We are both- Opposites.